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You Will. You? Will. You? Will.

Now I write when I'm away, letters that you'll never read.
You said "Go explore those other women,
the geography of their bodies,
but there's just one map you'll need.
You're a boomerang, you'll see.
You will return to me.

Oh you will, you will, will.

Cuz if you don't then this book's all lies.
If you don't then my plans will all be ruined.
If you don't then I'll start drinking like the way I drank before,
oh I just won't have a future anymore."


Artificial Pacemakers are fucking ODD.
& I'm shit broke until the 20th. Oh boyyyy.
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What Do You Have To Say? - Ah, Youth

Describe one moment from your youth that is impenetrably seared into your memory.


Everytime time I climbed my tree [or my kingdom] outside my grandma's house with AJ, hitting Alex in the face with my squirt gun [first sign of my abusive nature], getting decked in the face with a brick, getting chased down the street for a Prudential sign by the owner [& getting the cops called on me for the first time when I was 12-same incident], and getting bit in the face by my grandma's dog which resulted in stitches-first time I had pudding.
SLC Punk

What Do You Have To Say? - I'll Never Forget This Birthday

Write about your best (or worst) birthday.


Hm, the best would definitely have to be this last one. Not the day necessarily [though I spent it with my wonderful best friend and at-the-time boyfriend], but a couple weekends after I celebrated it full blast with a slew of close friends and some lovely "lemekas." Chris & Steph came down to surprise me and we spent the weekend at Tony's & in Santa Cruz. Fucking amazing.

And my worst was my 17th. Tony chose to start fighting with me on that day BUT he didn't really want to fight, so instead he was an asshole telling me he'd "talk about it later." So he ruined my entire day.

Fuck boys. =)

What Do You Have To Say? - Down to the Letter

Share a letter you've written. Or, write a letter to someone you miss.

I don't remember when I wrote this. Sometime in my sophomore year in one of my classes. I never sent it to him. For some reason, this was the only letter I could think of sharing. Mostly because it was from so long ago & a lot of you didn't even know me in this time of my life. So, most vulnerability out.


"Dear Jared, my favorite emo in the whole world:
I miss you more than I can express on paper or over the phone. I hate that you live so far away. I also hate that you don't drive, slacker. Haha, =). Thanks for the Valentine's tissue, very thoughtful. Ehh..I don't know how much longer I can do this, you know? I really like you & all, but you have so much schtuff going on.. and you live in SF.. and my parents are PSYCHO & like to keep me inside at all times.. it's just getting old.
I think that when I'm 18, I'll move into the city with you & your dad. Not for you so much, mostly for your Pa.. since he was very convincing that he needs someone to clean the manliness out of there. Haha. Makes me want to move in THAT much quicker! No, but really. Let's just stop while we're ahead now & find each other again down the line. I know we will, we are basically perfectly shaped puzzle peices. SCHWEIRD, I know. Haha.
Call me when I'm 18.. we'll work something out. For now, I'll jump on you at every show I see you at. Say "ello" to the Pops for me.
Love you for forever and a day emo, [then a heart drawing masked in checkerboard]
KatyKat-the bitch who's sharing your pod! haha."

It's weird to find this now that I'm 18. I don't even know what happened to Jared. He was SO cool & amazing & fucking perfect.. I wish I could have just realized it. Now I'm stuck here wallowing in my own self-pity because I am horribly crushing on my best friend/co-worker who doesn't give a shit about me, even though he totally led me on. Y-A-Y.
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NO MORE BLOOD BROTHERS?!

Good news:
Circle Jerks are touring again, oh hell yes.
& coyotes are a good luck charm for me now. =)


HORRIBLE NEWS:
"Dear Friends,
After 10 years of making music as The Blood Brothers, we have made the collective decision that our time together has come to an end. We feel extremely fortunate to have spent such a deeply memorable and amazing part of our lives with each other. At this point, however, we feel it's best that our futures move forward on separate paths. We'd like to express our sincerest thanks and gratitude to all the bands we've played with, individuals who have helped us make our records, and fans who have come to our shows and picked up our music throughout the years. Your friendship, support and love hold such a profoundly special place in each of our hearts. We hope that the memories you attach to our music are as fond as those you have given us. Thank you and take care, we'll miss all of you.
Love,
The Blood Brothers"

FUCKFUCKFUCK.
I'll never get to hear those darlings screaming at me live ever again.
=( definitely one of the downfalls of my life so far.


AND, no one fucking told me the Groovie Ghoulies broke up,
Goddamnit. Music is slowly dying.